GabrielleEman

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9 months ago I began to feel suffocated by everything and everyone. I started to feel like a robot that was maneuvering through life as programmed to do. I worked 5 days a week as a teachers aide, 3 days a week as a college student majoring in English so I can one day become a High School teacher. One year prior (2017) everything began to fall into divine order, I moved into my first place and I also went from the community college to the University campus ( A huge deal for me). What made it even better is that the new location was close to home and work, EVERYTHING was going perfect. Everything I wanted was manifesting, what is there to complain about?

Now, back to 2018, I'm no longer excited to be at work, its like I'm there but I'm really not. Everyday I was working toward a life that wasn't conducive with the actual lifestyle that I one day wanted. I continued to go that route in spite of because it was "honorable" and the "keys to success"- hard work and a college education. I thought about it for weeks, feeling nervous about leaving college for the third time, and leaving a job with no plan or job lined up. But my time at both places were coming to an end, I was winging it daily. Mid October within the same week, I left school and work! I knew I was "done done" when I didn't even stay long enough to get a full last paycheck, I also had a cruise coming up less than a month away and rent due lol.

My last few weeks working at the school were extremely trying, all I could say constantly was "this is a sign that its time to go". The thing that stuck out the most was when I would leave the building for my 30 minute  break and it literally felt as if a weight was lifted off of my chest, I could breath clearly. On my way back my chest would get tighter and tighter, once I entered the building again my body would ache and head would throb. I'm very spiritual, so I view just about everything as things are or are not for me anymore. The day I put my two week notice in I felt so much relief, and the last day I stepped out that building I was full of joy.

Fast forward 9 months after quitting that job, leaving school, cutting my locs, dealing with depression in between time, quitting yet another job lol, I'm now headed into a new found passion, modeling. The idea crossed my mind countless times, but this time I refuse to stop. Signs have been given nonstop, I can't continue to ignore. It is just the beginning, stay tuned for what will come next, join me on my journey and all the hiccups in between.

                                Signed,
                                             GabrielleEman

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